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Dr. Luke Bonnett:

With daddy dying just over a year ago, I had no idea what grief was and just, and quite frankly, being depressed, being down. Having struggled with depression some but that being something that really threw me into a pit. But then when you talk to others who had to deal with the same type of grief, the same type of issues, even in the practice, the Lord allowing even particular families, mothers, daddies, who knew what I was going through to enter into my life and to ask me what’s necessary, “how am I doing?”, to sit even in this very room and to cry, to sob with these families as they just said “you know, it’s going to be okay” in those moments that it doesn’t feel like it’s going to be okay. To have those type of relationships where I come to work to serve others but because of those relationships, that being reciprocated towards me, and they came through these doors to serve me, very impactful. And being in primary care, knowing that I would want to invest in lives so I want to be there through the years, never my thoughts would it been that I would have been the one seeking that through those relationships. Very, very impactful. But it’s been hard, it’s been a hard year, it’s been a hard year. Just, you know Danny was very proud of this building being built. He was very excited for this, even at Christmas time Mama snapped a picture of us reviewing the plans on the floor in the living room. this scene was most. Of course he was a fix-it kind of guy and he was more excited about the electrical plans, the HVAC and going “wow, look at all this”. Not, not gonna be big into all the pretty things, more the behind the scenes, how things work. And so all those emotional milestones, even the grand opening, his absence being felt, him not been here. So there’s many moments of reflection, missing him, but again we had a wonderful relationship and I was proud of him as a daddy, he was proud of me as a son. But I miss tremendously.

Ronnie Wilson:

How about your kids, what sense of difference have you seen in them since the loss of your dad, their granddad?

Dr. Luke Bonnett:

Very different, very different in how they reacted, initial grief reactions later, missing him as they began to go through some life experiences that they had shared with him knowing how much he enjoyed those things. He had fashioned, he made an arrow holder for one of our sons for his bow and arrow and so Benjamin would take to that to go to shoot more just I think to carry the holder around. My son Price, daddy had taught him a summer before he died taught him how to weld and so Price took to shop to weld things, to craft things as a way to go through the grieving process. So each of them, as we all do, have grieved differently and expressed their emotions differently.

Ronnie Wilson:

What’s something if you could talk with your dad today you might, you might be inclined to tell him?

Dr. Luke Bonnett:

Thank you.